once it's gone, it's gone.

Times are shitty, but I am sure it can't get worst?

Happy new year liza.

Merry Christmas

-- from Stitch head

Christmas is coming

december 2009

december..... please go away..... too many things to dooooo. omg.

rip 大閆生..

things can happen in any moment. it's another warning to us to cherish what you have..

MUSE

Bird fly up high, you know how I feel~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

halow lemon tea BB

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友

每個女孩身邊都有一個不是男朋友的男朋友你們可能相愛過，你們也可能喜歡著彼此，但是，為了什麼原因你們沒能在一起？

也許他為了朋友之間的義氣，不能追你。
也許為了顧及家人的意見，你們沒有在一起。
也許為了出國深造，他沒有要你等他。
也許你們相遇太早，還不懂得珍惜對方。
也許你們相遇太晚，你們身邊已經有了另一個人。
也許你回頭太遲，對方已不再等待。
也許你們彼此在捉摸對方的心，而遲遲無法跨出界線。

不過即使你們沒在一起，你們還是保持了朋友的關係。
但是你們心底清楚，對這個人，你比朋友還多了一份關心。

即使不能跟他名正言順的牽著手逛街，你們還是可以做無所不談的朋友。

他有喜歡的人，你口頭上會幫他追，心裏卻不是很清楚你是不是真的希望他追到。

他遇到困難時，你會盡你所能的幫他，不會計較誰又欠了誰。

男女朋友吃醋了，你會安撫他們說你和他只是朋友，但你心中會有那麼一絲的不確定。

每個人這輩子，心中都有過這麼一個特別的朋友，很矛盾的行為。

一開始你不甘心只做朋友的，但久了，突然發現這樣最好。你寧願這樣關心他，總好過你們在一起而有天會分手。

你寧願做他的朋友，彼此不會吃醋，才可以真的無所不談。

特別是這樣，你還是知道，他永遠會關心你的。

做不成男女朋友，當他那個特別的朋友，有什麼不好呢？你心中的這個特別的朋友...?

是誰呢？

很多的感情，都因為一廂情願，最後連朋友都當不成了。常常覺得惋惜，可惜一些本來很好的友情。

最後卻因為對方的一句喜歡你，如果你沒有反應，這一段友情似乎也難以維持下去，這也難怪有些人會因此不肯踏出這一步。
因為這就像是一場賭注，表白了之後不是成了男女朋友，要不就連朋友都當不成了。

有些事不是你能預料的，或許對方不在意，你們還可以是朋友，但卻已經不如從前的好.

i am such a dumb ass, waiting at home and pray for miracle?? no, u r at home looking for more disappointment.

no more thinking OK??!!

sick again

it's the 3rd? 4th? time I have been sick this year. why i am so weak lately.
i never sick when i was in van. yeeeeeeeeeeek.

high fever, please make me taller!

Mascara (煙燻妝)

被欺騙算什麼 早已習慣難過
眼神空眼眶紅 但記得別過執著
寂靜無聲的我 還能夠說什麼
眼神憔悴脆弱 用煙熏妝來蓋過

玫瑰都在淌血 它沾污了白雪
有誰想要了解 心如刀割的感覺
你等著我 解釋為何 微笑中帶淚
卸了妝 卻忘了我是誰

＊我用盡了力氣 想要留住你 你卻沒會意
　你的堅持讓我最後不得不放棄
　看著我眼裡 黑色的眼淚流著不停　

　你說你不相信 從來不在意 假裝的生氣
　我恨這樣才能抓住你的注意力
　女生的哭泣 它是常被誤會的心機
　對不起 其實你對我不熟悉
　答應你 自由我從此給你＊

躲進你的生活　想估據某角落
但愈小的異國　愈容易遭到封鎖

玫瑰都在淌血 它沾污了白雪
有誰想要了解 心如刀割的感覺
你等著我 解釋為何微笑中帶淚
卸了妝 郤忘了我是誰

i guess i am the only one again? what's going on around me these days?? what's happening with me these days??

i am not happy.

“Twenty years from now, you will be more disappointed
by the things you did not do than by the things you did do.
So, throw off the bowlines. Sail away from the safe harbour.
Catch the trade winds in your sails. Explore. Dream. Discover.” – MARK TWAIN

sometimes u just dun realize how many people has been surrounding you until you stepped a bit backward to see the whole picture.

maybe they r looking at u while u dun notice. maybe the way they look at you r different but u dun see it. maybe the way they treat u r different but u just dun realize b/c u r still standing inside the circle of ppl.

it happens when you r so used to the things u have, used to the ppl u see, used to the things u do. is it a good thing?

i am smiling ....shit.

it keep looping and looping... i forgot this kind of feeling since...dunno when...

confused

i am very confused. i can feel the blood running very fast inside my body when i think of it. what did i do?

can you find yourself in the dark?

tired? or exhausted?

I dunno what I am so busy at these days. I am tired of whatever I am doing all of a sudden. No motivation. no nth.

super bad mood today

i am such a jerk.

confused

i am very lost all in a sudden. i don't want anything to happen. i don't want any change...

or.. is it just my little fantsy or just my denial..

如果我是...

old photos

was browsing my old photos.. found the video he burnt me on my 21st bday.. so many things happened on the past 5 years a.

i really wonder if i am making a right choice...

so addicted

Gary 曹格 - a voice which touches me so much.